Kleisan 2 takseis sto sxoleio mas simera. Exo xasei episodeia apo tote pou ta paidia apofasisan oti theloun na pigainoun mona tous sxoleio. Den akouo ta nea pou anakoinonintai kathe proi stin prosefxi kai sisos xano polla. Na sou po tin alitheia, exo arxisei na anisixo ligo. Ipotithete oti mas prostateve to emvolio tou pneumoniokokou sta mikra kai oles autes oi malakies kai o panikos einai kai kala gia na min spiroun paniko kai na perasoun sta psila simantika pragmata.
My philosophy
Τετάρτη, 11 Νοεμβρίου 2009
Δευτέρα, 19 Οκτωβρίου 2009
Yoñlu
A great disc to sit down, think and dream is Yoñlu's A Society in Which No Tear is Shed is Inconceivably Mediocre
Check his bio and you'll understand why it's so brilliant.
"Music is, above all, a form of expression. A way to connect and communicate with something larger than yourself, be it some higher power, society, or even the people around you. Making music can be an expression of joy, love, faith or wonder, but often times it is a purging release of anger, sadness, frustration, pain or loneliness. Sometimes it's enough to help someone move past a difficult period of their life or to deal with constant pain. Other times, those feelings prove to be insurmountable.
Vinicius Gageiro Marques was a young renaissance man from Porto Alegre, Brazil. Impressively intelligent and mature for his age, Vinicius was versed in three languages and reading Kafka before he was 13. As a teenager he explored photography, drawing, music criticism and wrote and recorded hundreds of songs in his makeshift home studio. However, Ernest Hemingway once remarked, "Happiness in intelligent people is the rarest thing I know," and indeed, Vinicius' brilliance burdened him with a particular sensitivity.
Unfortunately, Vinicius, understandably disconnected from his peers, retreated into his own mind for most of his life. He apparently found some solace on the Internet forums and online communities where he shared his criticism, art and music under the screen name Yoñlu. This became a sort of secret world (his family was mostly unaware of the music he made) where he seemed to flourish, his incredible recordings resonating with the many who took the time to listen. Yoñlu eventually developed small followings in numerous parts of the world, from Canada to North Africa. But, even with this warm reception and the catharsis of his prolific output of deeply emotional music, Vinicius still found life to be unbearable and sadly committed suicide in 2006 at the agonizingly young age of 16.
It's impossible to disentangle Yoñlu's music from the story of his short life. In fact, the totality of his compositions was directly shaped by some of its more painful realities. This is quintessential bedroom music, not recorded as such for the cool lo-fi aesthetic, but out of necessity, its method of recording also a reflection of the solitude engendered by Yoñlu's hyper-intelligence and resulting alienation. And unsurprisingly, Vinicius' intimate pain is the most perceptible element in many of his songs. On album opener "I Know What It's Like," a play on the proverbial, plaintive teenage cry of "you don't know what it's like!", Yoñlu assures us that he does with dark, biting sarcasm: "I know what it's like / to be left out when all your friends try the new hip suicide thing…I do know what it's like / to be picked last in soccer practice and in shithole prostibules / and I know what it's like / to have to trade a girlfriend for a muse." The fragile "Humiliation" walks a more serious path with its heartfelt, repeating question of "Why does it always have to end with humiliation for me?", while "Suicide," written and recorded just a month before Yoñlu took his own life, most openly grappled with the impending act. However, lyrical content was not the sole source of his emotional outpouring. Vinicius possessed that rare ability to imbue his melodies with more than just simple melancholy. These songs, without any of their words, tug at heartstrings and manage to convey what he was feeling with stunning power and directness.
And while it's easy to view Yoñlu's music through a tragic lens, not all the material on A Society in Which No Tear is Shed is Inconceivably Mediocre is so grim. Other tracks here feature Mano Negra-like melding of genres ("The Boy and the Tiger"), percussive, Deskjet printer-sampling collaborations ("Deskjet Remix"), honest-cum-playful words of encouragement ("Katie Don't Be Depressed"), and tributes to the music of his home country. Yoñlu may pull some influence from the Western folk tradition, but he pulls much more from Bossa Nova and Tropicália, his acoustic guitar stylings infused with an emotional and rhythmic depth that can be traced back through greats like Vitor Ramil, Gilberto Gil, Caetano Veloso and João Gilberto. He actually gives one of Ramil's classics, the pensive "Estrela, Estrela," the stripped-down cover treatment and handily does it justice. It's a testament to Yoñlu's original songs that it fits in perfectly with the rest of this collection.
Even through his songs Vinicius Marques was unable to overcome the pain that he felt defined his existence, although he certainly recognized and admired the expressive power of music. In the note he left for his parents he urged them to listen to music "whenever they were sad" for, as he so eloquently put it, "the right cadence and harmony at the right moments can awaken any sentiment, including happiness in the most somber moments." He may not have realized it, but he had nearly mastered that formula in his own compositions. And though we'll never get to hear any new music from Yoñlu ever again, at least we know that when we listen to these songs we will feel something. Yoñlu wouldn't have it any other way. "
" Yoñlu was the recording nom de tune of 16 year-old Vinicius Gageiro Marques. Note the use of “was” here. His story is as interesting as it is tragic. From his parents home in the Southwestern Brazilian city of Porto Alegre, Marques, recording as Yoñlu, crafted lo-fi, tropicalia-soaked, pop and folk pieces reminiscent of José González and Nick Drake all in the fragmentary style of Damon Gough. Delicate and, at times, dark. A sonic example of the racing bouillabaisse that is a teenager’s mind, the songs range from the straightforward (”I Know What It’s Like“) to the schizophrenic (”A Boy And A Tiger“) mixing gentle acoustic guitars and keys with cheap Casio beats, multiple languages (Portuguese, Spanish, English) and snippets of dialog from television shows and commercials a la Michel Gondry’ film La Science Des Rêves.
Marques took his own life in 2006. He left his family a note with a CD-R of his music urging them to play it ‘whenever they felt sad.’ On his computer his parents found a seemingly endless trove of recorded material that their son had been sharing around the world, via the Internet, under the guise of Yoñlu. Cryptically, one of the songs is titled “Suicide.” Awash in multiple genres the songs have been distilled and compiled on A Society In Which No Tear is Shed Is Inconceivably Mediocre released on David Byrne’s Luaka Bop label.
"Original Bio from his homepage/tribitute page
Adapted from an article in the March 2008 issue of Rolling Stone Brazil:
The story of Yonlu has many angles. Yes, it is a story about music – of the continuing heart-spilling tradition of lo-fi troubadours, of post-rock's melodic imprints, of an ancient sadness lurking in the new-century and manifesting itself as modern Bossa Nova. But it's more than that. It is a story about how such music comes to be in a world where technology and communication hide feelings and emotion, but songs can't. It is about how the Internet can change an idea of what music means, of whom its creators are, and of what its creators can and can not do. More than anything, it is a story of a single young man, who lived all those angles and found it increasingly hard to do so -- but whose music transcended mere angles.
16 year-old Vinicius Gageiro Marques lived in the Southwestern Brazilian city of Porto Alegre, the only son of university professor and psychoanalyst Ana Maria Gageiro and second child of Luiz Marques, doctor of Political Science and Secretary of Culture of the state of Rio Grande do Sul between 1999 and 2002. He was a bright inquisitive young man, a polyglot adolescent who spoke French (he lived with his family in Paris from 3 until 7 years old), and wrote and spoke English without ever taking classes (he learned by watching TV). He began reading Kafka at 12, and at 13 dedicated himself to recording daily life using a photo camera. Vinicius also had an impressive musical aptitude. He demonstrated a knowledge and a critical sense in his analysis of pop music, always written in English and available on various websites. And he recorded hundreds of songs, playing guitars, bass, drums and sound effects in one of the rooms in his house he transformed into a studio.
But his focus had a dark side. "He was serious, maybe too serious," remembers his mother Ana Maria. "Very early on, I understood that his sensitivity to the world was also his weakness."
On the afternoon of July 26th of 2006, 36 days before turning 17, Vinicius locked himself inside the bathroom of his apartment, and took his own life via carbon monoxide intoxication. An avid Internet user with the screen-name Yoñlu, Vinicius stayed on-line until the very last moments, and members of the suicide forum he frequented accompanied his every last step. Before locking himself in the bathroom, Vinicius wrote a letter freeing his family members from any guilt, explaining that his suicide could not have been stopped or imagined. He asked that his wishes be respected because his life was unbearable, he indicated the web address for his blog, thanked his parents for their support and recommended they listen to his music whenever they were sad, exactly as he would do. Even though he didn't suggest they listen to the music he composed, he left them a CD with some of his songs.
On Vinicius'computer (which was being searched by Police investigators), his father discovered some of the precious sounds he had stored away -- the majority were his own songs. The music came with enthusiastic commentary made by Internet fans from around the world. Yoñlu, the Brazilian from Gay Harbour (that's how he would refer to Porto Alegre), almost without any real friends in real life, was a popular virtual artist with fans from England, Scotland, Belgium, Canada and North Africa.
His recordings revealed just a fraction of his potential, his talent for experimentalism, and a capacity to create delicate melancholy melodies, something between Badly Drawn Boy, Radiohead, Tortoise and Nick Drake.
The music of "gringo" artists weren't the influences on a kid contaminated by the universal conscience promoted through the Internet. Yonlu's sound was enriched by his passion for bossa nova, his attention to the ruptures in Tropicalia (he considered Gilberto Gil the genius of the movement) and the influences of gaucho artists such as Vitor Ramil, his favorite, whose song "Estrela" he covers here.
Between a poetic lyricism and general nonsense, the lyrics, written in English, help uncover who Viñicius really was. Topics like depression, inadequacy and suicide are scattered among the tracks selected for the disc. "Katie Don't Be Depressed," a musical pearl with steamy guitars and popular lyrics, is somber: "Katie don't get depressed/it's serious, I want to say, what the hell is that? / a thought across your mind/ and I see you twist and scream/ even though you have a hand to hold onto/ even though you were cast aside."
In "Humiliation," vocals, guitar and the incapacity to declare a passion, is pungent: "Why does this always end in humiliation for me? / I'm going to say why/ I'm going to die"; the sad ballad of carefully chosen lyrics "Suicide Song," written one month before the fatal date, is haunting: "Now she has gone like everyone else I knew/ now my suicide is illuminated by the sunset/ if you want to know my opinion, it's very sad/ I don't think I will be/ present to see your face."
Yoñlu is a disc that should have been a post card, but transformed itself into a testament. It's the celebration of a life with the talent for a banquet that stopped at the appetizer. It's a showcase of sound and poetry of the kisses that Vinicius never gave, the dreams he never realized, the anguishes he couldn't get over, his passion for art and especially for music, like he expressed in the letter he wrote to his parents: "I believe that the right cadence and harmony at the right moments can awaken any sentiment, including happiness in the most somber moments."
Παρασκευή, 16 Οκτωβρίου 2009
Ashram
Alitheia de sas exo milisei gia tous Ashram e?
Oi Ashram loipon, einai oi Sergio Panarella kai Luigi Rubino (to vasiko didimo sinthesis) kai argotera prostethikan kai oi Alfredo Notarloberti (gnostos italos violistis) kai Leonardo Massa (tselo).
I mousiki tous xaraktirizete sto lastfm san "neoclassical darkwave" kai, an kai i leksi darkwave mou fainete panentelos atopi, i alitheia einai oti kapou dikiologitai.
Giati akougontas tous ashram, sou erxete ena moudiasma sti kardia, kati san ti mousiki ton Secret Garden, xoris ta celtic stoixeia, sto pio melagxoliko, sto pio romantiko. Emena prosopika, me magepsan, perasa 1 mina+ niothontas mia agaliasi, mia iremia, ena sinaisthima oti eimai erotevmeni ksana apo tin arxi kai oti den iparxei tipota simantikotero apo ekeinon dipla mou na me agapa.
Mporeite na parete mia gefsi apo auto to asteri tis Prikosnovenie, tis megalis enalaktikis etairias pou ipostirizei gothic, medieaval kai fairy alla kai world music kalitexnes, opos oi Caprice, Artesia, Stellamara, Irfan, moon far away, tous ellines Daemonia Nymphe (pou o ixos tous einai arxaies psalmodies), sto simerino gcast player
dreams come true, Bibbidy-Bobbidi-Boo

Eilikrina, ores-ores, de mporo na katalavo merikous anthropous....
Tha mou peis, edo den mporo na katalavo akoma ton eauto mou, tous allous tha katalavo? Ypotithete oti ta dika mas profanis lisis provlimata, fantazoun vouno sta matia mas kai mono kapoios apekso mporei na dosei efkola lisi, mias kai vlepei to paketo kai oxi tin tholi maza tou provlimatos pou vlepoume emeis kai einai pio efkolo na vreis to profanes sta provlimata tou allou para sta dika sou. Tespa, den einai douleia mou.
Prin 10 xronia peripou, mou girisan ta miala, ekana tin epanastasi mou kai ethesa kapoia oria ipo amfisvitisi, kapoies empiries pou eprepe na apoktithoun sti zoi mou kai kapoies prokliseis. Ta perissotera minor achievments ta katektisa, opos to na methiso, na kseraso apo methisi, na kapniso xorto, alla kai kapoia akoma, epithimo diakaos na epitixo gia na theoriso oti exo petixei stin kataktisi ton "mikron pragmaton". Se kapoia major achievements, pou eilikrina den perimena sxedon pote na epitixo, petixa para poli grigora kai eimai evgnomon stin tixi mou gia auto. Alles, den exoun tin tixi na vroun ton enan kai monadiko, alles den xoun tin tixi na kanoun paidia, ego eixa tin tixi na sviso apo tin lista ton stoxon tis zois mou 2 megala oneira para poli grigora.
Ektote omos mpika se ena xazo louki, afethika na damasto apo stereotipa kai koini gnomi, apo ntropes kai malakies pou den exoun kamia simasia, giati "those who mind, don't matter and those who matter, don't mind", parasernontas kai autous pou "matter" se enan anemostrovilo distixias kai mizerias mazi mou.
Ta apolita prosopika achievents pantos, ta agnoisa, katastrefontas olo kai peirssotero mesa sta xronia kathe proodo pou pigena na kano, i kathe pithanotita gia ektelesi stoxou. i alitheia einai oti de vlepo fos s'auto to tounel.
- Pote epitelous tha pistepseis oti eisai fantastiki, monadiki, exeis iperoxo gousto kai idees, protoporiakes kai tha papseis na akous to kathe provato i eunouxismeno prosopo pou tha ithele, alla de mporei, i tha ithele alla einai arga pia? I istoria os tora exei diksei oti oloi osoi se legan kits, esena, tis idees sou, ta gousta sou, se 2 xronia sou legan me stomfo to poso oraio kai protoporiako einai auto, poso monterno kai goustoziko einai, auto pou einai sti moda kai poso ksexoristoi einai pou akolouthoune tin moda, ksexnontas osa sou eipan 2 xronia prin, gia auto akrivos otan eixes esi tin idia idea i to gousto. Just face it.... eisai mprosta apo tin epoxi sou kai auto den allazei. Papse lipon na krivese kai na pentheis ta tsakismena sou ftera kai na amfisviteis ton eafto sou. Zito oi xromatistes kourtines, peran tou asprou kai mpez, zito oi xromatistoi tixoi, peran tou nosokomiakou asprou kai ton kitrino-mpez apoxroseon, zito to bollywood, to fagito kai i mousiki tou, zito ta online paixnidia, tipou second life, zito to ksantho me kastanes antavges mali, zito i neomedieaval mousiki, ta gothic/bdsm clubs kai lifestyle genikos, zito ta trapezia xoris karedakia, zito, zito kai zito gia ola.
- Pote epitelous tha tous grapseis olous sta arxidia sou kai tha anoikseis ta ftera sou gia prosopiki ikanopoisi ? Vale to daxtilidi, vale to skoulariki, kane to tatoo, kane auto pou thes kai mi dineis simasia se kanenan. Autoi pou pragmatika s'agapane tha einai xaroumenoi mazi sou, pou tha eisai xaroumeni kai ikanopoiimenoi kai de tha tous kaigete karfi an einai koinonika prepon i oxi. Auto aloste theleis ki esi gia autous kai prospatheis, alla de mporeis na ksefigeis apo to ton ipokritriko favlo kiklo.
- Pote epitelous tha papseis na tous fovasai? As poun oti theloun. I douleia den einai ntoripi, einai anagki prosopiki i epiviosis. Kai konsomansionou, kai poutana, kai striper kai porn star gine an thes, apo ekei pou "it matters" exeis to elefthero, "he doesn't mind", arkei na eisai happy gia na tous kaneis ki autous happy. Toses kai toses ginaikes trigiro ta katafernoun, me ton enan i ton allo tropo ki an fas porta i aporipsi den egine kai tipota. Proxoras parakato.
- Pote tha kinigiseis ta oneira sou? Kanena oneiro den einai xazo, an sou dinei prosmoni kai elpida.
Anyways........
P.S. Kali lefteria stin kouniada mou pou auti ti stigmi (i kapou edo telospanton, den gnorizo akrivos kai an egine to vradi opos se emena i eisagogi, i to proi) mpainei sto nosokomeio gia na gennisei. Me to kalo kai enan pono.
P.S.2 Elpizo na kataveis oti auto pou kaneis einai malakia kai na ksipniseis, prin vretheis na stineis kolo gia liga psoroevro, mpas kai katafereis na kerdiseis piso kapoia apo ta xamena. Ego pelon eimai poli kali sto na piano to pote pao na ethisto se kati kai na to kovo maxairi noris, alla sta 160 kila, eimai idi xameni apo xeri, apo ton megalitero ethismo mou. Gambling is not fun, nor a job, it's a serious adiction.
P.S.3 Esi pote tha katalaveis oti opos esi noiazese gia to kalo mou, etsi ki ego noiazomai gia to diko sou? An i zoi kai i eftixia sou kindinevoun apo to varos mou, to idio kindinevei kai i diki mou apo ton anefthino tropo pou paizeis me tin igia sou kai to kapnisma. thes kanena aproidopoiito emfragma na me valei na sinexiso tin oikogeniaki paradosi xirias? Thes na ginoun auta xamena kai ateli san emena kai tin P? San tin mana mou? Oute ego den eimai 20 pia..... Mou zitas na eimai dinati, na vgo apo to kavouki mou gimni kai na perpatiso sto dromo gia xari sas... Gia xari sou... Esi pote tha antimetopiseis mia tosi da velonitsa kai enan giatro gia xari mou?
Δευτέρα, 05 Οκτωβρίου 2009
To buy or not to buy AION?
Friend has tried to to pursuade me to buy AION online with many ways for a couple of months now.....
His latest tries have finnally started worked out I think.....
I mean, I can't ressist playing against or beside Barack Obama, Rambo or Michael Jackson rofl!
P.S. I've heard Kurt Cobain plays too, maybe I can get Britney Spears?
Σάββατο, 19 Σεπτεμβρίου 2009
aaaaxxx ki akoma kala-kala de xeimoniase....
Welcome sadness, acwardness, lonelyness, too much free time.....
What to do when you're alone in the house from 8-4, blue and there's nothing to really do?
online games? scratsch them out
cooking/baking? I'm already 150kg, don't wanna hit 170....
kniting? no kidding......
downloading, music listening, drawing, reading? well, all of these manage to fill somehow my days.
Τρίτη, 15 Σεπτεμβρίου 2009
Kywitt! Kywitt!
I'm starting to lose it.........
Kywitt! Kywitt! Kywitt! Kywitt!
Caprice's* new album "Kywitt! Kywitt!" is the sountrack to my insanity these days.....
Damn fall........
Damn winter.....
Damn rain.......
Damn fog..........
Damn brain.........
Damn blog!!!!
All i need to enter the asylum now, is to start listening to Dvar* too!
*Caprice = Caprice is a neo-classical ensemble from Russia distinguished by Inna Brejestovskaya’s heavenly voice and acoustic sound (harp, flute, clarinet, violin, cello) with a touch of electronics. The band’s debut album was released in 1996. Probably the best known band’s project is the Elven trilogy – an attempt to show what the music of the parallel world of Faerie sounds like. The first two CDs are music illustrations to JRR Tolkien’s novels, while the third part of the trilogy is sung in the unique language of Laoris. The music the mainly composed by Anton Brejestovski, who also invented: Laoris the language of the faeries used on their Elven trilogy. Their latest album, 2008’s “Kywitt! Kywitt!”, has one track made with the enigmatic band Dvar.
*Dvar =Dvar is a unique electronic project of two people from Moscow, Russia who claim to have heard music in their dreams. The music was presented to them by a strange creature named Dvar. All music of the band is devoted to him and inspired by him. Members of the band claim not to create their own music, but rather being mediums of what they have heard. Lyrics, according to them, are performed in Enochian language. Despite their electronic sound, Dvar are more known as gothic/darkwave artists because of all the hype in the beginning of their career. Listeners of their first work pointed out that terrible things happened to the ones who has listened to their music. Their earlier works are darker and reminding you more of black metal, later works are something like music of fantasy book heroes gone crazy. They are known to have remixed Caprice’s song Walts. They also colaborated on Caprice’s latest album “Kywitt! Kywitt!”, in the bonus track “Fae Fae Fae Fae Fae Fae Fae”.
